It's just me. Rambling

I met Freddie numerous times this summer. I can tell you why he is so tan. All he does is surf and hang out at Surf Lodge, which is where I spent a lot of my summer. He got my friends phone number and we were going to go surfing with him until we found out we had to wake up at 4:30 in the morning. .Too funny!

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 15:49:29 -0500

I met Freddie numerous times this summer. I can tell you why he is so tan. All he does is surf and hang out at Surf Lodge, which is where I spent a lot of my summer. He got my friends phone number and we were going to go surfing with him until we found out we had to wake up at 4:30 in the morning. .Too funny!

On a side note. .

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 09:57:07 -0500

I think Sid actually killed Nancy ( it is a rumor) at The Chelsea Hotel and said “ ”I stabbed her, but I didn’t mean to kill her. I loved her, but she treated me like shit” Sid then shortly killed himself and said in his suicide note. ” We had a death pact. I have to keep my half of the bargain. Please bury me. Next to my baby. Bury me in my leather jacket, jeans and motor cycle boots. Goodbye”

Pretty f***ed up, but still in a weird way romantic. I know I sound crazy, but I am always fascinated by the crazy love stories. Sid & Nancy, Romeo and Juliet, Duncan and Jeremy Blake. . There is something romantic about people who wanted to love but were in capable of expressing it in a normal conventional. There is something romantic about one person dying and literally not being able to live without the other.

Jeeze. It’s not even 10 in the morning. I have to go study for my History of The Sixties exam which is at 2:30.

Peace. ( I never say that, but I’m trying to get in the Sixties mind set.. Maybe I should take some LSD? hmmmm.)

Sid Vicious & Nancy Spungen.

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 09:53:00 -0500

Sid Vicious & Nancy Spungen.

Halloween! Julia, Dana, Sweeny and me. Julia was obviously a...

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 09:41:42 -0500

Halloween! Julia, Dana, Sweeny and me.

Julia was obviously a devil. No dressing up necessary since she is a devil in real life. ha, joking! not really! Dana was some goddess. She made that dress herself. She is an amazing designer and I told her when I ONE day get married she is designing my dress. Sweeny was cotton candy. Typical! Not so much of her dressing up as cotton candy.. ( I hope that was her first time, ) but very typical of her wanting to be creative, but still show some ( a lot ) of skin. I loved her costume especially since I was able to eat cotton candy all night. ( Missing from photo is a pink bag that contained tons of it. ) And finally… I was Nancy, from Sid Loves Nancy. Separate pic to follow.

The email I just woke up to. Subject: Bonnie. Looks for a serious friend

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 09:36:06 -0500

Hello everybody.
How are things?
My name Sonya
My purpose to find the man for serious relations.
I positive and funny.
I WISH to know about you a little.
With huge desire I wait from you for the answer.
All good.

Wishing I was on a plane to New York, or anywhere really. Home...

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 19:24:37 -0500

Wishing I was on a plane to New York, or anywhere really. Home in less than 3 weeks!

I miss my sister!!!

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 19:23:44 -0500

I miss my sister!!!

The most lazy Sunday ever.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 19:23:49 -0500

The most lazy Sunday ever.

Grandma and Grandpa. Happy 67TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!! I have so much to learn from the both of you, in SO many ways.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 14:00:36 -0500

Hey there writers,

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 23:12:33 -0400

have you ever read the most amazing book and then felt like complete crap because you realize you will never be able to write such a fantastic piece of work?

Indiana pride. Vintage, of course.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 23:08:23 -0400

Indiana pride. Vintage, of course.

"Endings are never easy. I always build them up so much in my head that they can’t possibly live up..."

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 13:53:53 -0400

“Endings are never easy. I always build them up so much in my head that they can’t possibly live up to my expectations and I just end up disappointed. I’m not even sure why it matters to me so much how things end. I guess it’s because we all want to believe that what we do is very important. That people hang on to our every word, that they care what we think. The truth is, you should consider yourself lucky if you even occasionally get to make someone, anyone, feel a little better.”

- J.D., Scrubs (via jessicachu)

Sorry for the lack of blogging. . I am trying to be a studious college student.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 12:25:02 -0400

"To lose somebody is to lose not only their person but all those modes and manifestations into which..."

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 14:36:01 -0400

“To lose somebody is to lose not only their person but all those modes and manifestations into which their person has flowed outwards; so that in losing a beloved one may find so many things, pictures, poems, melodies, places lost too.”

- A Severed Head by Iris Murdoch. What a beautiful book.

It's always a great feeling to go somewhere that hasn't changed since you were kid. Just walked into Abercrombie and felt like I was back in 9th grade. Left smelling like their new perfume and suddenly felt a huge headache coming along. I could blame the wine I drank last night, or maybe it was the overwhelming amount of pictures of good looking men hanging from their walls, or the obnoxiously loud music that they were blasting. Oh Abercrombie and Fitch!

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 13:08:15 -0400

I miss my sister, my dog, my mom, my dad, my grandparents, my...

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 21:04:24 -0400

I miss my sister, my dog, my mom, my dad, my grandparents, my other grandparents who I never met, and the rest of my family. I miss lying on the most comfortable couch in the world in my apartment back in New York. I miss going to bed while listening to drunk couples in college yelling things at each at each other on the street that they wont remember the next morning when the sun wakes them up and they look out onto their overpriced view of the Hudson River. I miss 24 hour diners, the MTA and the dirty subway. I miss the city that keeps you awake and on our toes every single second of the day, the city that makes slow walkers walk fast, and the city that makes sure it is impossible for you to ever feel lonely.

Right now I am lying in my not so comfortable bed in a town that I have grown to love. I am listening to music because the the streets are quiet here and my house is surprisingly quiet silent for a Tuesday. It’s always hard for me to be in complete silence. My thoughts start racing, and that my friend is always a dangerous thing. I’m sick as a dog and I have so many exams this week. Perfect timing. For real.

I’ve been writing a lot, and reading even more.

I’ve been spending a lot of time with people I hardly even knew before this semester, and I can’t believe that in 3 months I will be in Barcelona.

I could go on and on because my hands can’t help themselves, but my head is telling me I need a least 12 hours of sleep.

I won’t be falling asleep to the sounds of the restless trees in New York City, or the drunken Columbia students or the determined sirens trying to save lives while trying not to cause any accidents on the way to their destination. I will be falling asleep to silence, something I am still trying to learn how to appreciate.

Till tomorrow, xx.

"I like the surprise and fire in their eyes. I like their eagerness and curiosity. Guys are capable of swooning over a new writer they’ve just discovered, or of speaking passionately about some idea. They’re nothing but possibility." What do you really want? A Guy or a man?

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 13:27:02 -0400

"I like the surprise and fire in their eyes. I like their eagerness and curiosity. Guys are capable of swooning over a new writer they’ve just discovered, or of speaking passionately about some idea. They’re nothing but possibility." What do you really want? A Guy or a man?

mascarah: Clocktower Building in Dumbo. Are you kidding me? I’m...

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 13:06:50 -0400

mascarah:

Clocktower Building in Dumbo. Are you kidding me? I’m in love.

If I had an extra 25 Million… I want I want!!!!! Absolutely beautiful.

I dropped my I Phone in a cup of water last night and obviously it broke. My delete button on my computer will not work. Boy, do I hate technology.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 13:25:23 -0400

I’m not a huge fan of toddlers or cheerleaders, but I have...

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 13:53:10 -0400

I’m not a huge fan of toddlers or cheerleaders, but I have to say that these outfits are absolutely adorable.